As I sat staring at the sky with a troubled heart, the Lord spoke to me, saying, “Why are you so perplexed? Some work for Me, and there are those who worship Me; you choose what you want to do.”
Without much thought to His statement, I knew instantly how fired up I could get to start something, but after a while, my strength vaporized; I was not that young anymore, and my health was finally getting better. Compassion fatigue is one of my significant problems; it can burn anyone out. The loss of loved ones, my health, work, school, etc. To be honest with me, everything I had been sucked out emotionally, physically, and spiritually. No matter how hard I tried to revive what was lost, I could not regain it alone. I felt forgotten by the Lord (Isaiah 49).
There are so many questions in my heart I can’t answer and will not talk to just anyone about; this just brings more confusion. So many of my brothers and sisters worldwide are going through some tough times. I can’t answer the “Why’s (Proverbs 3). What I now know for sure is that I had neglected my relationship with the Source of all my springs, which is my relationship with my first love, Jesus Christ (Rev. 2:1-4). Spending time listening to His still, small, tender voice and trusting Him in every detail of the Day is an act of worship; I worried and worked to discouragement and despair. These are just a few things I have been feeling for some time.
I responded, “Lord, I would rather worship You, because when I worship You, You work through me. Thank You for answering the questions in my heart.”
Isaiah 40:27 “Why do you say, O Jacob, and complain, O Israel, “my way is hidden from the Lord, my cause is disregarded by my God?”
28Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary; no one can fathom His understanding. 29He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. 30Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; 31but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles and run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.
Prayer: Lord, Your Word is accurate, and Your Love is faithful even when I have been unfaithful to You. Thank You for not leaving me with a darkened heart; You have given me a new song. May Your Song rise in my heart as I worship You, my God, my Savior, my King, amen.