C.A.B.’s Kids, Let’s Go!

His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him, who called us by his own glory and goodness.
2 Peter 1:3 

When recess was over, I would blow my whistle and scream, “Cabs Kids, let’s go!” My kids were blended with the general population, but when they heard my voice, they would come running and line up with me. One of the kids asked me one day, “Ms. Lisa, what does C.A.B.’s mean?” Choices affect behaviors, I said. “Does this mean something is wrong with us, he asked. “Oh no, it means that not only are you building your I.Q., you are also building your emotional Intelligence, E.Q. What is E.Q., he said. Emotional Intelligence, I said. Confused, he said, “What’s that?”

Well, I went on to say that when we get frustrated, we have two choices: lose our temper and do something that can hurt ourselves or others, or give ourselves a time-out and think about the consequences of our words or actions before we regret something. I have to admit that I am learning as well; self-control. “Oh, now I know why you always go to the quiet room!” We laughed and went back to class.

C.A.B.’s ( Conquering Adverse Behaviors)

Since then, although I have not mastered all my behaviors, I am confident that I have conquered some patterns of adverse behaviors I’ve carried since childhood by the divine power of the Holy Spirit when I read the word, and I admit that I can’t do the will of God through my strength. I’ve also learned to notice my triggers instead of fighting them; they only strengthen when we try to silence and suppress them. Like a child has a meltdown, our inner child has concerns that must be addressed, listened to, and validated. During those times, I see shadows running to hide from me through my mind’s eye, the shadows of the parts of my exiled inner children; however, when I speak to them with curiosity, they hear the tender voice of the Holy Spirit who sits on the throne of my heart. As Jesus tenderly speaks to us, they hear His still, small voice saying, “Let the little children come to Me.

For example, after finally resting in my place, I was overpowered by panic attacks. Instead of feeling relief from running and hiding from one place to another because of fear of my ex finding me, I felt an urgency to flee, but where? I’ve exhausted all my resources and felt utterly alone. Finally, I touched my heart and heard the still, small voice of the little girl saying, “What if.” That’s all I needed to hear; I understood exactly what she meant. Her concerns were valid. When I was a child, I was reminded that my brother and I were left at the mercy of others to take care of us. I wanted a home so badly that I did whatever it took to please our caretakers so we could have a place to call home. However, it wouldn’t be long before we were uprooted and abandoned again and again; this became the story of my life. Even as an adult, the fear of abandonment kept me shackled in abusive relationships. I validated her concerns and said tenderly, “We are safe now, Baby girl. Jesus is with us, and He will never abandon us.” Because she thinks I am still a child, I reassured her that I am a grown woman and thanked her for being brave when she had no other choices. I imagined picking her up, hugging her tightly, and bringing her home, out of the past, and into the “Now” with me.

The Bible is the Word of Life, and God, in His great mercy, has given us His Spirit to enable us to live the life of His Son in us. I used to view the Bible as a book of condemnation against the parts of my life that shamed me; however, Paul says,

Romans 8:37-39, "No, in all these things were more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God, that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.' 

God, by His great mercy, has given us the freedom to choose. I heard the inner critic part’s condemnation: the abusive caretakers who didn’t provide choices; they demanded compliance. Some kids even now have no voice, and they are silenced because of fear. Either they comply or metaphorically die; they desperately need to be heard physically and spiritually. Sadly, some fear death if they speak up; the Bible says to speak up for those who cannot speak up for themselves. Since the garden, the devil has twisted God’s word and continues to do so through religious practices and wicked people who use the Word of God to manipulate and control. We have internalized those critics and still hear their condemning voices as adults. Jesus is the Author and Perfector of our faith; He took the full force of sin upon Himself and paid the ultimate price for every sin, past, present, and future. He knows where our wounded children hide from the shame and despair the enemy uses to keep us stuck in our past. Still, suppose we allow Jesus to walk us through. In that case, we will find His Redemptive Work and set our exiles free from the captivity of the Beast of Shame, sometimes mirrored to us by the children we care for in the physical domain; we can see a connection in the spiritual realm. Instead of condemning my parts, I ask the Holy Spirit to reveal the Exiled Parts that need validation, tending, befriending, and redemption. That’s another story, but for now, let’s rest in God’s unfailing love and His saving grace by the Power of His Holy Spirit. Instead of blending with your Anxious Parts, place your hand on your heart, take a few small breaths, and imagine all your exiled children sitting at the feet of Jesus and saying, “Find rest, oh my soul in God alone, amen.””Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me; at his sacred tent, I will sacrifice with shouts of joy; I will sing and make music to the Lord. Hear my voice when I call, Lord; be merciful to me and answer me. My heart says of you, “Seek his face!” Your face, Lord, I will seek. Do not hide your face from me, do not turn your servant away in anger; you have been my helper. Do not reject me or forsake me, God my Savior. Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will receive me. Teach me your way, Lord; lead me in a straight path because of my oppressors. Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes, for false witnesses rise up against me, spouting malicious accusations. I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” Psalms 27:6‭-‬14

References:

Holy Bible, NIV., Internal Family Systems Therapy by Richard C. Swartz, Martha Sweezy, 2023, Mindsight by Daniel J. Seigel,2010, The Power of Now, Eckhart Tolle 2000