When Heaven Stood with Me
In Loving Memory of My Son, Ramon Liles — 9.20.1978–10.31.2021
Scripture:
“The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.” — Exodus 14:14
The morning after you died, my son, when I awoke, the Son was not shining in my heart. It was dark inside — the kind of darkness that follows unthinkable loss. My body trembled, my breath came in shallow waves, and I fell to my knees. Through tears, I cried out, “Who will fight for me now? Who will stand and defend me in my hour of need? It was always you who protected me.”
In that brokenness, heaven moved.
I heard what sounded like an army approaching — a rhythm of strength drawing near. I looked up through my tears and saw what my heart could scarcely hold: Mighty Warriors clothed in the armor of God, their faces radiant with light.
And there you were — my son, my Mighty Warrior — standing firm and fearless beside Jesus. The light that poured from Him flooded every shadow of my soul, and I felt something lift, something long bound by grief set free.
Then I saw that these warriors were not only from heaven — they were the ones still here: family, friends, and loved ones who had been praying, reaching out, and comforting. Their love had become the armor surrounding me; their faith, the sword that held me up.
In that holy moment, I knew:
Heaven had not abandoned me.
You were not gone — only gone before.
And the same Savior who holds you now was holding me, too.
The darkness loosened its grip, and light began to rise again within.
“You are not alone. I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” — Matthew 28:20
The battle is not yours; it belongs to the Lord.
And those you love — they still stand with you in the company of His eternal light.
Beloved: The God Who Sees Me
“Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy, bringing their sheaves with them.” – Psalm 126:5-6
This work was created in loving memory of my precious son, Ramon Liles.
His body was found on the side of the road on October 31, 2021.
In the depths of my grief, I cried out, “God, where were You?”
And the Lord answered,
“I was there. I have always been there.
I took your beloved home.”
Even in the valley of sorrow, God sees.
Even in the silence, He is present.
And from every tear sown in faith, He brings forth a harvest of hope —
a sheaf of remembrance, redemption, and love everlasting
In Loving Memory of Ramon Liles
September 20, 1978 – October 31, 2021
Beloved was written through tears — sacred tears that water the soil of faith.
My prayer is that those who read my story are blessed beyond measure,
and reminded that our hope is in Jesus Christ.
Who holds us closer than a brother in our times of grief and sorrow.
We are not alone.
Not ever.
He is the God who sees.
This is the 4th anniversary since my son left earth and went to be with our LORD and Savior, Jesus Christ. I do something special to honor my son; it helps me to keep moving forward toward Jesus’ love and the hope for my future in heaven with my son and grandchildren, whom I never got to hold. I started this journey around the first week of October; letting go and letting God was the most challenging part for me. I don’t have all the answers, but God knows everything, and I find comfort in knowing that God will bring everything into the light. Until then, I lay this at the foot of the Cross, and pray the LORD bless those who mourn. If you have been walking and praying with me through this journey, thank you!
