“ There is Life after Death; it’s just different.” On October 31st, 2021, I got the call no parent wants to get. In the blink of an eye, the life I knew died; my child was dead; I was told that my son was dead. It’s been three years, and I still have to remind…
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Ramon’s Song
Happy Heavenly Birthday Son When my mother first held me, she said I was perfect. I felt his love when I lay on my father’s chest; even when he doubted we were bonded from that moment, I knew I was fearfully and wonderfully made. I was loved from the moment of conception. I was born…
TIDES, WAVES, AND ANGUISH
TIDES, WAVES, AND ANGUISH When I think the tides have subsided, another wave becomes more potent than before. And it’s time to hold my breath again. One year is drawing near; it would have been my son’s forty-fourth year; I can see the giant waves on the horizon, the waves coming at a distance, and…
Where is Home?
Where is Home Self-Awareness As I reflected on the past few years, I saw myself standing upon the mountaintop with hands lifted victoriously. I thought of Christian from Paul Bunyon’s book, Pilgrim Progress. Like him, I felt like I was carrying a heavy burden, and although I laid them at the foot of the Cross…
Fill My Soul
When my son died, I felt like my heart went into shock. It went completely numb. I couldn’t cry; I couldn’t cry. I couldn’t feel pain; my heart couldn’t grieve. It felt mechanical and lifeless. Every bit of my being left, I felt mechanical, without a soul. I stood over his coffin; it wasn’t him….