I often wonder what my life would have been like if I had made better choices. What would God say about me right now if He and I were standing on a mountaintop looking down? What if He took His measuring rod and surveyed my life at this point. Not in the future, but at this very point since I gave my life to Him and began my journey with Him?
Would He grade me or degrade me? Would He look at me with disgust and turn away, wishing He never made me? Would He tell the whole assembly all my faults and laugh at my failures, like people do when they gossip? Would He say, “Look, all this was My plan for you, but you messed it all up; so sorry for your loss?” Would He walk away, dropping the blueprint and shaking His Head in utter disappointment?
My God would hold me close and say:
“I knew things wouldn’t work out the way you may have wanted, and out of your sinful nature, you would rebel, thus causing you to make bad choices that have consequences. However, because I love you, I took the punishment for all your sins, nailing them on the cross with Me. I have taken all of your bad choices and recycled them into something as beautiful as a sunrise. I took your old songs of despair and turned them into praise. I taught you how to find a rose in the desert. I have shown you how to spread your wings and soar like an eagle above your circumstances, and when you were wounded and couldn’t fly, you nestled in My loving hands while I healed you. I loved you at your worst, even when you didn’t know how to love yourself. Now you are free to love yourself and those I have placed around you without any expectations.
When people looked down at you and made you feel unworthy or even told you your life was a mess. My eyes looked upon you with approval. I smiled when you shrugged those insults off because you learned how to trust Me in the dark and put your confidence in My Love”.
God would say this to those who have learned to place their hope in His Son, Jesus Christ, even when things don’t seem fair or just. When things just don’t make sense, they choose to lean not on their understanding but trust in Him fully because they know we live in a fallen world, and His ways are better than ours. When the world wants an explanation, His children are walking exclamations, thus making those of the world scratch their heads thinking maybe this Jesus is God as Good and Faithful as they profess.
We may be mere servants and feel like we are eating the crumbs in this world, but we know our place has been set with our names on it at the banquet table of the Bride Groom.