But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
2 Corinthians 12:9 ESV
https://bible.com/bible/59/2co.12.9.ESV

In the World, weakness is shunned and labeled as a disability. Since I serve children who live with autism or other underdeveloped childhood experiences, I see where I, too, missed out on my childhood development in some areas of my life. I made a decision years ago, learning and growing through weaknesses, I have everything I need by the grace of God. For example, while listening to Dr. Phil’s podcast with Izzy, a young Israel soldier who lost an arm on the battlefield and regardless of his disability, he continued to serve; his story is a powerful testimony of perseverance, although he did not talk about the Lord, I was drawn to this verse. In his book, Disarmed, he spoke about his physical disability and acknowledged that some have inner scars unseen yet overcome. Dr. Phil also said something that gave me a revelation. He said it was easy for people to name all the things we don’t like about ourselves, and instantly, when asked, we state them without much thought. However, when asked, the struggle begins. In this chapter, Paul spoke about spiritual gifts, but more importantly, he shared his weaknesses and said he would instead share his shortcomings for the glory of God. When I focus on my inner struggles, I lose sight of God’s steadfast love and faithfulness. Moreover, I also recognize that I am not where I was a year ago; I’ve grown in many areas and rejoice in God for not leaving me in that state of mind.

I’ve learned to thank the Lord during these times because He parts internal and external barriers that would otherwise stunt my growth if I choose to focus on them as something to grieve about instead of trusting in God’s grace and mercy. For instance, I asked a young at school to name five things he liked about himself; without any conceit, he shared that he was kind, empathic, and compassionate. He also stated that he liked that he could read music and play his guitar. Another student loves war history, and like an encyclopedia, he can name names, dates, victories, and defeats; without much thought, he could go on and on. What I saw in these students was their passion, what made them flow, and how, instead of focusing on what I can’t do, I can be thankful for what God can do through me. When the Lord reveals what He has done, my heart rejoices more. Therefore, through my disabilities, what I rejoice more in is when someone shares with me what God is doing in their lives; I am refreshed by their testimonies. I rejoice in God’s abilities, which are limitless; praise and glory to God alone.