When I first became a believer, John 3:16 had little impact on me—yes, learning that my sins are forgiven, which were beyond calculation according to my knowledge and understanding because I was still trying to please God through works. However, I did not fully realize the true impact of God’s love for humanity by sending…
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The Well-Spring of Life
Although I have had some relationships the women who have suffered at the hand of abuse, I am committed to their safety and privacy. Therefore, I changed their names. The purpose of these stories is to spread awareness. Sally and her husband were married for over fifty years, and unless you were up close and…
TIDES, WAVES, AND ANGUISH
TIDES, WAVES, AND ANGUISH When I think the tides have subsided, another wave becomes more potent than before. And it’s time to hold my breath again. One year is drawing near; it would have been my son’s forty-fourth year; I can see the giant waves on the horizon, the waves coming at a distance, and…
Listen to Time
Listening to the Sound of Time A strange thing happened last year at school, most of the digital clocks stopped working. Then, after the tech repaired one, another stopped working until the school eventually replaced all the digital clocks with the good old-fashioned wall clocks. Do you remember the older watches with a big hand…
Digging Through the Ruins
Talking to God My Road to Recovery has not been what I imagined while living ignorant of God’s nature and control of all things internally and externally. I learned that inner work is exhausting; sometimes, I feel it would have been better to stay ignorantly blissful. However, I would still have my family stuck in…
Journaling on My Day’s Journey
8 June 2022 Today, a lovely woman of God invited me to live in her home. A stranger, yet not strange. I felt a connection when I met her yesterday, when my long-time friend introduced her to me. So now, here I am in a home I have never known or owned, owned by a…
My First Year
My First Year Today should be a celebration not only a celebration of motherhood but also a celebration of freedom for me. One year ago today, I made the decision that changed my life. When faced with the reality of choosing between life and death, I chose life, I chose me, and I walked away…
Fill My Soul
When my son died, I felt like my heart went into shock. It went completely numb. I couldn’t cry; I couldn’t cry. I couldn’t feel pain; my heart couldn’t grieve. It felt mechanical and lifeless. Every bit of my being left, I felt mechanical, without a soul. I stood over his coffin; it wasn’t him….
Just a Thought
Will you be, Just A Thought or a Breath of Fresh Air? Life is a serious business, not something taken lightly, not for a moment! Someone takes her first breath, and a final breath breathes one last time. Yes, some will mourn for you, but unless specific memories arise about you, a choke followed by…